I miss my grandparents! x/

So, last night while doing Tarawih prayers, my mind kinda accidentally thought of my late grandparents..and I sorta cried a little, thinking if only they're still alive. They might be proud of me on my achievements for the past 4 years.
The one I miss the most is definitely my grandmother on my mother's side whom I call Opah. She passed away on August 22, 2007. Exactly 1 week and 4 days before UPSR (this seriously big examination when I was in Standard 6)..words can't describe how sad and shocked I felt at that time. I was only 12, for goodness sake. I needed her more than ever, but I guess Allah loved her more. God, I miss her so bad. x/

Yeahyeah, I know I'm cheesy. Me likey that way (:

Heyy again! :D It's been quite a while since I updated my blog. Um, busy life since I entered boarding school. So, I apologize. (:
Currently I'm listening to Hero by Enrique Iglesias over and over again. I'm addicted to it and I kinda cried the first few times I heard it. It just..I don't know, gets to me, you know?
Um, well, I just celebrated my supposedly sweet 16th birthday last Wednesday. However, it wasn't as sweet as I thought it would have been. My loved ones weren't around to wish me happy birthday straight to my face. Only Facebook and my phone can show me what they have to say. But that's not as fun as listening to the words, right? But, that's okay. I guess I'll just have to sacrifice these 2 years in order to obtain scholarship to pursue my dreams to study in the University of Cambridge. InsyaAllah, that's what I'll get if I work really hard. (:
Speaking of love, man, I miss talking to this one guy. Since he came back from this competition last week, we haven't really get to talk, as in, really talk. It's been almost 3 months since I started liking him, this is actually something grand for me! I'm quite surpriseed with myself, actually. I don't really know why, but there's something about him that doesn't let me stop liking him.
Wanna know what I like about him?
Note; If you wanna know, keep on reading. If not, then STOP now and go to some other webpage, instead of thinking you wasted your time reading some cheesy stuff, because this is gonna get really cheesy.
Okay, moving on, he is just about the nicest guy I've known ever since I moved to this school. The way he treats girls is just so nice. Much nicer than any other guys here. He doesn't hit girls, even if it's just because of a dare. He talks to girls very politely, as if he's talking to his sister. That's the kind of guy I've always wanted to know. It's weird how before this, I only wanted to know a guy like that, but now I want that kind of guy. Get it? ;)
Not only is he such a gentleman, he's also really smart, talented, funny, and can talk just about almost anything. That is seriously the kind of guy I want.
My dad has also met him (during a school function) and he thinks my crush is a really nice guy, can talk about stuff, has something in common with my dad (rugby) and can be funny sometimes (or did he say my crush knows when to make a joke? It's something like that...) So, I take it my dad doesn't think he's half bad. (:
Well, most probably that's all for now. Till next time! (: <3

Didn't expect this to happen.

It's 2.10 a.m and I'm awake in front of my laptop, updating my blog since.....5 or 6 months ago. :P I'm currently revising on what I've been going through for the past 3 weeks. A lot of things happened to me and it's all thanks to a guy.

Yup, that certain guy who has no idea how I feel towards him. That certain guy has no idea how much he helped me go through the tough days I face everyday at that school. Because of him, I'm still going strong.

Love plays a really big role in our life. It is the only thing that can either make us live every second or it could kill us. It all depends on how we control it. Currently that guy is helping me live. Sure, he doesn't know it but I sort of wish he does. For no reason. :)

Every little thing he does makes me smile. I capture those moments, store it in my mind and replay it again and again every night before i go to sleep. Every stare he gave me gives me goosebumps and when he's near, I lose my breath. I can't stop thinking about him. He's the first guy that has ever made me feel like this. Is there a reason for that? What is it then? I need to know about this ASAP. Gosh, I'm losing my mind. =_="

Life after PMR (:

Ouh my gosh. Life after PMR is truly the best feeling ever this year! :D Now, I'm just praying that I'll get straight A's because I so wanna get out of my current school. On 14th October 2010, a few students from Yokohama Seiryo Sogo High School, Japan, came to my school for the Cultural Exchange program. (:

Here's an interesting fact about the whole thing;

Fatin Z, Izzati and I are the main dancers for the performance on that day but we only started practising the whole dance on the 12th of October. Just imagine, only 2 days of practise and we kinda nailed the dance!! :D

Anyway, nothing much to tell about that day. I didn't really enjoyed it as much as other events because I got a bad news the day before that; my crush likes somebody else. And that girl is kind of a close friend of mine. :(

Well, I gotta go. I'll continue this again some other time, okay? Till then, later! (:

DAMMIT! x((

*sigh* It was supposed to be the best place I'm gonna visit for Raya this year, but things didn't go out as planned..

I was wearing my best outfit because my family and I were going to go to my aunt's house. Her nephew temporarily lives there for the school holidays. When school starts, he'll go back to his boarding school in Pahang. I had a crush on this boy since the first time I met him. We were 7 years old at that time. We played together and it was such a fun time for me.

I still remember the day as it was the only day I ever saw him. We were both playing in the kitchen (maybe we were playing tag?) then my aunt and uncle were going out to buy some stuffs. So, we tagged along. In the car, I don't have the slightest idea what we were trying to do but we stared at each other and then we laughed. Then we kept quiet. Then we looked at each other again and laughed again. It went on and on and on until we reached the supermarket. That's all I can remember.

So, when we stepped into the house, I got all nervous and excited to see him again. The last time I saw him was when we were in Form 1. And that was the first time I saw him since we were 7. Imagine how long we haven't seen each other? As soon as we sat down, my eyes went wild searching for him. But I can't find him. I thought maybe he was somewhere upstairs, doing his homework. I came up to that conclusion because when my aunt was over at my house, she told me that he was always busy in his room, doing homework.

Finally, after what felt like an hour (seriously, it was just about 5 minutes) he showed up. I felt my heart skipped a beat (wait, make that 10 beats) and I was very excited when I saw him. He then went into the kitchen but showed up 3 minutes later and shook hands with everyone. He missed out my mum so he kinda U-turned and shook my mum's hands. He then moved on to me. Too bad I was, like, too mega nervous so I was like, "We can shake hands?" Then I could feel him going red in the face. My mum was giggling beside me. Suddenly the whole world went blank (too bad I didn't faint, though) and after a short recovery, I think I blushed. Dammit! God, I seriously wished I could've undo time and just take his hands and shake hands with him...

Later, we had some noodles to eat. While eating, (I always get my best ideas when I'm filling up my tummy) I got this brilliant idea. He was watching TV (not alone, though) and I guess I could go and watch it with him. Then maybe I can apologize for what happened earlier. Then perhaps we could have a laugh about it and keep on talking like good friends (yada yada yada). I thought I would have the guts to do it, unfortunately, I haven't fully recovered from my nervousness (I wonder if that is a word?) so it didn't happen. However, I did watch TV with him and he sounds so adorable when he laughs. (:

Finally, we gotta go home. After shaking the elders' hands, I wondered if I should finally go (and bring along some guts) and work the plan. Well, I was still a scaredy cat so, yeah, you know what happens next. But, for a second, (more like 15 minutes) I felt like he was looking at me. I don't know whether it was a you're-weird stare or well-look-at-you stare or whatever. But I could feel he was looking at me. Doesn't everybody know that feeling when you think somebody was staring at you?

Darn it, really wish I could undo time, or at least see him again and have the guts to talk to him. At least a simple "Hi" or a smile would be the smallest thing I can do to a crush.

Awe-some!! xPP

Well, it's been a long time since I last posted a blog..so, let's see what I did for the past months..

MARCH

I can't remember much, but I sat for my March test. It was easy, I guess. After all, I scored 6 A's. But, unfortunately, I had 2 C's which made me got number 30 out of 32. Then, it was the school holidays which I spent doing nothing except for tuition class. I sure had fun there. Haha.

APRIL

April's the same as March. *I can't remember what happened...heehee* Just school, tuition classes, piano classes and Quran reading classes. As usual...

MAY

Well, this is the month I totally became a fan of Shahir AF8!! Haha!! Thank God he won the 8th season of AF. I don't know if it's just me, but he totally deserve to win. Hmm..I guess it is just me. Haha!! Oh, I almost forgot, I bought AF8 Hits album this month! (:

JUNE

A day before the mid-year exam, our school's senior assistant, Puan Siti Fatimah bt. Pilus, called all 3 Putra 1 and 3 Putra 2 students to talk about our March test result. Boy, was she mad. I don't even wanna replay what she said. Let's just say it was scary. (: Then, we sat for our mid-year exam and I was hoping my History and Living Skills marks would improve.

Soon, it was the school holidays. But, us Form 3 students had some extra classes to attend during the 1st week of the school holidays. However, Fatin Zulaikha, Izzati and me had traditional dancing practices because some Form 2 students and us will be performing for the Japanese students from Shibaura-Kashiwa Junior High School who'll be coming to our school on the 23rd of June.

On the 13th-15th of June, I went for a motivational camp at Lenggeng, Negeri Sembilan. On the way there, I had butterflies in my tummy, but after I made some friends, it was AWE-SOME!! (: I met Afiqah, Nissa, Syahirah, Aisyah and Iqa. They make me feel so much like I was at home. But, as always, I hate going to camps because we make friends, stay with them for 2, 3, 4 days, and then it's time to say goodbye. It was so sad leaving them. Luckily, Nissa stays in Presint 16 and coincidentally, I have a tuition friend named Farina who happens to be her neighbour. I guess Farina is our mutual friend. Hee..! I don't think I'll forget Nissa because she lent her headscarf to me as mine was wet when we were on our treasure hunt.

Moving on, on the 18th-20th of June, my whole family went to Tasik Kenyir for a holiday. As soon as we reached there, we took a boat from the jetty to our chalet. We had to cross the lake and OMG, it was such a fascinating sight!! God is the most powerful!! I was totally stunned when I saw the blue lake so when my mum was talking to me, I hardly paid attention. On the 19th, my cousins came over and that evening, we went kayaking and fishing. It was my 2nd kayaking experience and my 1st fishing experience. Only God knows how awesome it felt!!

When school opened, we still have our dancing practice and this time, we had it from 8 a.m to 5 p.m. Well, it was acceptable because we only have 2 days until the big day. It was tiring, but I couldn't care less because dancing is my life. I dance all the time, whether just a sway or really rock out! Haha!!

On the real day, I arrived early to school which is a big achievement for a latecomer like me. About 10 minutes after I arrived, all the dancers went to the ladies' to change into our outfits and put on real heavy make-up!! It was such an experience for me and I wouldn't mind having to put on make-up like that again. Hee..!! Fatin and I were the last ones to get out of the ladies', so when we got out, some of the boys from my class were at the stairs that we were heading for, and they saw us and were going "Whoa!". Oh, it was way embarrassing! So, I smiled and say "Peace!" and quickly walk away. Backstage, we were nervous like hell!! Unfortunately, my nervousness took over me and I made a mistake at the beginning of the dance. But, the rest of it was awesome!! When the camerawoman was taking pictures, I looked at the camera and smiled!! Haha!! The picture must look so weird..anyways, later, when we were having lunch, Fatin said her sister's friend said I was over-doing the dance. I only had two words in my head all day long; Screw her!! When I went into class, I just kept my head down low because I still have my make-up on, but then they all asked me questions and I had to look at them. *sigh..* Afterwards, while I was at the foyer, staring at the Japanese students as they roamed around the school, the camerawoman shouted out to me, "Beautiful dance!" and I replied, "Thank you!"

The next day, lots of my classmates didn't come in to class. Some went camping, some others went for an environmental talk. So, there were only about 10 people in class and Alya, Izzati and I were the only girls. Since the whole cultural exchange program isn't over yet, Izzati went to talk to our Japanese language teacher, Ms. Suguna Devi, and asked her whether me and her could help out with it. She said ok and then it was playtime for us!

We wondered around the assembly spot and looked out for cute guys. Haha!! Izzati found one and then another one. I didn't quite like the first one, but I so like the other one. He is mega adorable!! He didn't really look like Japanese. Looked more like pan-asian.

Since Izzati speak Japanese, she walked up to him and asked for his email. He gave it and then just walked away. Man, was he cute or what!! Hee.. Later, we went to a booth where they did some Japanese caligraphy and I got a guy to write my name in Kanji. It was really weird. Even Izzati couldn't read it. Hmm.. One more thing, I realized that Japanese just loves to do the 'Peace' sign whenever they took pictures. At first, it looked cute. But when you see it too much, you get annoyed with it. When it was time to say goodbye, without noticing it, my tears actually dropped. I have no idea how and why, but I cried. I'm totally gonna miss Emi and Riko (I think) plus that really adorable guy who doesn't look like Japanese.

A week after that, I got a new phone!! It's a touchscreen phone and I'm enjoying every second using it.

28th June..Faa's birthday!! :D Cunn cunn..! x)

30th June..Fatin Z's birthday!! x))

JULY

Whaaaaa~~~!!! It's my birthday month!! The happiest month I could possibly ever ask for. I don't think anything could bring me down this month.

I think I have a new crush..hee hee!! He is so cute..just by looking at him makes me feel giddy all over..*sigh and melting inside*

8th July..participated in Floria Festival. Did a collage and represented my school. Went with Dewi, Fatin Z, Aishah and Panie.

9th July..our collage was ruined. Either because of the weather or sabotage. We quickly fix it before the judges came. Then, I think I totally screwed up during the presentation because I was too nervous and I couldn't find the right word in English so I spoke in Malay a bit here and there...huu~~~

10th July..went to Hotel Istana in KL and had fun!! It was a treat for my birthday. Mama got me a new kebaya top. It was super pretty!! Loved it so freaking much!!

15th July..Aida Nazera and Puan Che Norhayati's birthday!! I wished happy birthday to Aida but didn't have time to wish Puan Che Norhayati.

16th July..Bahirah and Bahiyah's birthday!! I wished Bahiyah but didn't have time to wish Bahirah. During recess, I played with Aida's tortoise which Shatesh gave to her. She hadn't named it yet. So, it was awkward not calling it by a name.

17th July..Izzah, Radiah and Adeela's birthday!! I wished Radiah at school during extra class. She gave me a slice of chocolate cake which she brought to school. Really tasty. Then, around 5 p.m., I sent Izzah and Adeela a text message. Unfortunately, it didn't reach Adeela. I think she changed her number. But Izzah got the text and said thanks. Oh, I almost forgot. Today was the prize-giving ceremony for the collage we did last week. Our collage got a special award. That's better than nothing, I guess. We only got a trophy and certificate. Good enough. That's all I can write for this topic. I'll post a new topic next time. Bye!! x))

new nickname

huhu dewi yg bg new nickname kat my crush..
dy kte klo dy xbg nickname bru, x psl2 dy sbot my crush's real name...
so, al-kisah nye, lnx hang la dewiiii!! x)

yg paling xske enn, nme bru ni agk plik sket..
nme yg jrg2 dgr..
mmg un-crushable... sorta...
dat's my word heheh
the nickname is HANAFI x)

dewi kte 'ok wut...'
well, yea it IS ok i guess, but evrytyme i hear it i am so gonna laugh!! x)
sumhow it tickles my funny bone... xP
wutevs dat means...
huhu

ni sje je nk mnyemak kat blog...
it's currently 10.26 pm, i cn't sleep sbb bru minum Nescafe *yummy McYummy!! x)*
agk plik la, sbb biase nye minum Nescafe agy la ngntok..
but not 2nyte....

i rili should b doin my HW, tp sumpa mls ouh!!
n tkot nk dok bwh sorg2...
klo bwk HW naik ats, xde nye wat dlm bilik..
sbb computer da tercongok kat ats meja nihhh.....
huhu

pstu mule la nk on myspace
facebook
runescape
YM
mcm2 agy la...
smpai da konpius nk on yg mne x)

well, tu je kowt 4 diz tyme...
nxt tyme 2lis pnjg2 agy...
heheh adios!! x)